What I want?
Ok. This is what I want. What I want is for everyone in the world to disappear for a couple days. 3/4 days. Leaving behind just you and me. I want you to look into my eyes and tell me how you truthfully feel. I want to kiss you & hold you and fall in love with you all over again. I want to believe in us. I want to hold your hand and feel you squeeze mine tight as if you’re holding it with confidence. I want to know if you TRULY DID lose feelings for me or if you’re just saying that because of the situation we’re/were currently in. I love you, I still believe in this love even if you don’t. My words and thoughts all jumbled together will NEVER be enough. You won’t change your mind and I don’t want you to either? Only if you’re doing it on your own. Not because you’re forced or because you “felt bad/guilty”. I don’t want that. I want you to live your days as you are. Me not being on your mind or maybe/hopefully being on your mind 24/7. I want you to sit there and reminisce on ALL of our old memories. Remember the late night strolls in the park, the late night drives to sonic and falling asleep in your arms. The times you’d sing out loud to skrillex or borgore. Jamming and racing with other cars. I miss it all. The rush I’d get when I was with you. The feelings that ran through my body. The endless amounts of endorphins that were being released. You met my family. I met yours. We went too far to just give it all up now. I know you care. You have to! I know you’re not the person to fake your emotions. I know I know. So please just give me those couple of days god. To sit there and look into his eyes and let this love flourish all over again. I beg for these days. I really, do.


